For as long as I can remember I have suffered from anxiety. I didn’t know how to control it and I couldn’t understand why it even was happening to me. I just would feel my heart racing as if it were going to jump out of my chest. My thoughts shouting at me, and my body feeling tense. I wasn’t able to have a clear mind and it bothered me that I didn’t have control over my anxiety. It became my worse enemy, but I wanted to make peace and not have this burden on my back I couldn’t deal with the weight. I needed to find a solution.
My parents would always tell me to take a walk or go explore outdoors, perhaps that would soothe me, but of course I never listened, because I thought it was silly to just take a walk, not knowing that a walk can be peaceful and relaxing, It wasn’t until we had took a trip to Pennsylvania to visit family and friends, that I really felt that nature was the answer to my anxiety, I finally let lose and went to explore the outdoors and just simply looked at the trees swaying back and fourth with the wind almost as if the branches and leaves were dancing, that helped with my breathing. Then the river that makes a gentle sound that can put you right to sleep, that made my heart smile and not beat out of my chest. And the sky, oh how I loved to look at that sky and the sunset was smiling at me telling me everything will be okay. The sunset helped me have a clear mind and gather my thoughts in an orderly fashion, I was able to take all of that in just from exploring, I began to realize that nature was teaching me how to relax, and how to control my thoughts just by looking at all the beauty in front me. How to clear the mind and how to make peace with my anxiety. I couldn’t believe that nature had done all that for me. I was able to view nature and really appreciate every detail from the grass to the rocks to the animals even the steps that I took to get a better view. Everything was helping and I was starting to take control over my anxiety. My parents knew it would be a good idea for me to come on this trip which is why they decided to take that trip and it helped me to get in touch with nature and see what I didn’t see before. The stress wasn’t so heavy on me anymore, nature was healing all my wounds. It had great power to make me see a light that I thought was dim and scary, but it turns out it shines bright with a big smile to tell me that I’m alright.